I can’t seem to type or say anything but just cough out a few words.
I may not be the smartest person around.
Nor may I make the awesome-st of decisions.
But theres one thing I cannot stand.
A partner who may have done things.

I’m recalling every single word I read, saw. I’m no idiot.
I’m someone who will never let go for the past.

Forgiveness can be made, but I can never forget.

I can force it out. Push it away.
But it will eventually come back.

Someone please give me a hug.
My heart and head hurts.

I judge. Everyone does, hence I will not deny.
Nor will I deny that I'm wrong. But not the words today but long ago, are hitting me hard.

I don't want to talk but sit here, blast music into my ears as it drowns every single thing out.